Welcome to my Blog!! (First Post)

Hello Beauties, Welcome to my first post on my blog.

I hope you’re well, I have decided to refresh my blogs, merely to look more professional and organised. I am also joining this blog with my website; Click here to view!

If you are wondering who I am, I am an amateur beauty blogger for Instagram, where I make 15-60 second videos for you to watch; My Instagram!

This blog will be used as a written video and personal talks I don’t want to make a video about. I want to be myself, In my current videos, I admit I haven’t been myself, I’ve been following everyone else. I have never felt like I could be me, even when growing I never felt like me. Now, I want to show people another side of me. People would characterise me and judge me on my first impression. However, I want to show you the other side of me not a lot of people have seen.

Hopefully, you find my posts relatable and somewhat inspirational.

See you in the future,

XO Jess


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Get To Know Me Tag!

Hello, Beauties!

Today I’ve decided to allow you to get to know me a little. I have used three different websites for this tag. I collaborated them with the most relevant questions

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Enjoy and I hope you get to know me well.

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1.Do you have any siblings?

I am an only child. Which during my childhood had its twist and turns on how it affected me? I’d say when I turned around 14, It didn’t really bother me anymore

2. What is your middle name?

My middle name is Tamara. This was meant to be my name until my Mums dad said that he’d nickname me Tomato.

Yes, I’m Jessica Tomato.

3. What are your hobbies?

Singing: I do like to sing, with honesty it’s something that I currently like to keep to myself. Even though I actually plan on singing for my Instagram reintroduction Video.Photography, Video Editing, Reading and Writing.

Photography: I love taking, look and editing photos. I find various iPhone apps very interesting.

Video Editing: I love being creative and although it’s been a while since I uploaded a video, I’m always on the look out for apps to edit videos.eading and Writing

Reading & Writing: I hoard books. I admit I have not read all of the books I own. I also want to write my own book. I’m currently writing a story which hopefully I’d publish in the future.

4. Do you have any talents?

Well, I sing, as mentioned above. I can bend the top of my index on its own and my tongue can touch my nose.

5. Favourite smells?

I love the smell of coconut, cotton fresh and shea butter.

6. Where were you born?

A town in Lincolnshire, UK. It’s not that exciting.

7. Do you have any pets?

I have two. A 3-year-old pug, Prince aka Pops and a 2-Year-old Boxer, Lennox Lewis aka Socks/Bambi.

8. What is your favourite colour?

I like Sky Blue and Purple but show me something Copper and I’ll fall in love with it.

9. What are your favourite songs at the moment?

  1. The One That Got Away – Katy Perry
  2. Make You Feel My Love – Adele

10. What phone do you have?

iPhone 6s, It was my mum’s phone after she got an iPhone 7.

11. When was the last time you cried?

I watched ‘1 litres of tears’ Japanese TV show for the second time at 1 am and it killed me.

12. Who are some of your favourite YouTubers?

Doddleoddle, Qknd, JustMattie, Mandeville Sisters, Jessii Vee, Sprinkleofglitter, Jessie Paeage and Haunted Sunshine Girl.

13. What are some of your favourite tv shows?

I honestly don’t watch a lot of English TV but I like ‘My Mad Fat Diary’ and ‘The 100’.

14. Tell us one of your bad habits.What’s the first thing you notice about people?

15. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

I seriously hate first impressions. It’s just another way of judging others. I know people judge me on what I look like just by seeing my face. I feel like if you look at their body before face it’s very rude.

16. What is your Favourite drink?

It’s bad but I can’t help myself from drinking Pepsi. Fizzy drinks are an obsession. My favourite alcoholic drink is either a Dark fruit Cider or Vanilla and Passionfruit Chardonnay.

17. What is your favourite book?

I’m Enjoying ‘The 100’ Books by Kass Morgan. I have all four books but I haven’t read Book two yet!

18. What is your favourite animal?

I’m Obsessed with Owls. It started since secondary school, I don’t know why. Well, I prefer fake owls, real life owls seem to scaryIf you were another person, would you be a friend of yourself?

19. If you were another person, would you be a friend of yourself?

Yes. I would be. I know I don’t have friends now, but that doesn’t mean I’m not allowed, friends. I mean, I am Quiet but once you get to know me you see that I’m a completely different person.

20. What is your favourite movie?

I like movies such as Braveheart, Camp Rock 1&2, Taken 1, 2&3 and Underworld 1.

21. Favourite memory from childhood?

I like to remember memories of my late Nanna Heathorn the most. I actually have a storytime I  want to share with you regarding the day before she passed away.

22. Do you speak any different languages?

I have a school certificate in french but it doesn’t make any difference, as I only remember some words as My recent Asian TV obsession has made me learn a few words in Korean.

23. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

I have never been in a relationship. I have never really been interested and I’m sure no one has been interested in me either. I admit I crushed on two people. One in Primary School and One in Secondary but when I was in school if you didn’t you were strange as well as if you have never dated. I said I did have a Boyfriend just to keep everyone quiet but someone close to me found out that ‘ Mark Shore’ was a lie.

24. How would you describe your fashion sense?

I would say that my style is Casual and wearable. I don’t really shop much and I buy bigger shirts to feel comfortable.

25. Computer or television?

Computer, How else would I watch Kdramas?

26. Summer or Winter?

Winter. I hate Summer for its bugs and hot weather but I love Summer when it comes to photography.

Fun fact: I have Ice more in the Winter than I do in the Summer.

27. What would you (or have you) name your children?

I don’t have children and haven’t really thought about having kids till recently, However, I Play Sims 3 name my Children there. I like the names Avery, Kaiden and I like the idea of having a quirky name, so instead of a name like Alexis, it would be Alexiz or Danyl instead of Daniel.

28. Funniest moment throughout School?

School was meant to be fun? I liked school for socialising and only took part in lessons to make people proud.

29. Scary movie or happy endings?

Scary movies give me the adrenaline and all the Kdramas I love have Lovey Dovey happy endings.

Possibly Both.

30. What do you want to be when you grow up?

That’s what I ask myself all the time.  I’m still figuring that out. I have dreams but I don’t know about my future.


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My 13 Reasons Why Response (Comparability, My Suicidal Thoughts, Why I Recommend It)

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I am writing this after watching ’13 Reasons Why’.

I heard about this Netflix show on Instagram and Twitter, I even have watched a conspiracy theory video before watching the show.
To briefly tell you information about the show without spoiling it, The show is about a girl in high school and her reasons why she decided to commit suicide and the people around her and their involvements in her decision.
At first, I wasn’t interested I this show, not only cause I didn’t have Netflix but I didn’t know what my reaction would be. I’m up for watching things like this but I’d rather not sit and bawl and possibly reminisce as when I do I always get a headache.
I watched 1.5 episodes whilst babysitting for my mum’s friend whilst they were at a quiz night at a pub. After I managed to get them to bed I used their Netflix. I didn’t really know what to watch and I didn’t want to suddenly bombard their Netflix with K-dramas. I decided to watch ’13 reasons why’ but I did hesitate on Twitter, I didn’t want to have a mental breakdown in someone else’s house. I only watched 1.5 (not even that to be honest) as they came back from the pub.
I watched this at first in the background whilst playing Minecraft (cause I’m mentally 9 not 19) but I was paying attention to it. I understood the storyline and most of the characters roles (not names though). With honesty, I was waiting to be triggered a couple of episodes but that didn’t happen. I then decided to sign up and get a Free month of Netflix.
This had many topics within this story, it was not all about suicide but about struggles with coming out, being raped, stalking, scrutinising and full on bullying.
I mainly focused on the storylines and not getting to know most of the characters names but the characters I paid the most attention to was Hannah and Clay (I ship it).
I won’t spoil it in case you are researching to watch it or not, however, I will talk about my overall comparability with this show.

What Character do I most resemble?
I think I resemble Clay the most.  His character is shown as someone who regrets not being able to stop Hannah from committing suicide but him wishing he knew about what Hannah went through as he had a one-sided love crush on her and as he listens to the tapes he wants to not only understand but not allow Hannah to have this brand on her and cover up for either her mistakes and say things to people that she never had the courage to say. He wanted answers and he wanted someone to take responsibility for her death.
Why? You ask.
My best friend whilst in secondary school self-harmed and I knew this but didn’t know how to help her. People would say talk to teachers or her parents but I knew that the school’s pupil support would not help and would rather hinder from previous experiences of me going to them and being told ‘It’s not their problem’ which is completely shocking and also follows the school councillors role in the show and her parents from what I saw knew about this and I was the quiet girl who didn’t speak up. She would wear a bandage to school and people would talk about it. She showed me her cuts and her blades she would cut with, and spoke to about it but didn’t really give me an answer to why she was doing this. I offered her a shoulder to cry on, a friend if it gets hard for her and someone who will always listen. I do wish I did more to help her but I didn’t know what to do.
I feel guilty for also telling her about my suicidal thoughts as I knew she self-harmed (something I could never do) however I did feel like we bonded a bit more.
Suicidal Thoughts
Why Suicidal thoughts? Personal Issues mainly. With the loss of my Nanna Heathorn, the aftermath of her death, home life with parents, being an only child,  Bullying at school as well as School in general. It was all piling up inside of me and I struggled to manage them by myself as I didn’t want or need to discuss them with my parents (especially if some of it could have been about them).
I would wonder “what’s the point of being alive as I made people unhappy and no one liked me” and Think about hanging myself from the light in the living room and I did tell my auntie that I would kill myself and of course, she told mum and that caused a riot, which would make it worse.
You see with me, I couldn’t harm myself, it was in my head. How I managed to come around this would be to distract myself but what I recommend is to write PFD’s, Personal Feelings Diary entries about your day and situation. I would recommend seeking help but I was not severe enough to want it or really need it.
Most of this mainly ‘hormones’ that teengers go through, and I look back now wondering ‘why’ this was a big deal to me then.
Aftermath of my friend
My friend met someone and turned to weed and partying, I didn’t know what to do however It helped her. She found new friends and she also had a baby and although we have become distant (another blog conversation) I see her as an amazing mum, who does struggle but I hope she knows even though we don’t talk anymore, I am here for her and will always support her through being a mother and as a friend.

What I learned from this is to be aware of people and their feelings, a joke to you could be the worst thing said to them. If I see someone like my friend was, I want to be there for them. I will listen to you, I’ll try and help you but with honesty, I don’t know how to deal with the situation, at school they never taught us how to and only suggested Teachers, Parents and Pupil Support which never really helped.
I have read of the negativity of ’13 reasons why’ and I don’t know why. This basically highlights suicide stories and its there to make you aware. I don’t see how this is ‘glamorised’ or ‘will allow copycats’.
I admit it didn’t show ‘how to get support’ (did near credits) but It was realistic in the sense to me of
1. People having involvement in the suicide, people who lead Hannah to this.
2. Being the friend who doesn’t know how to support or what is really happening them and their regret
3. The failure in school systems to prevent this from happening, Hannah went for support and didn’t get what she needed and my school personally didn’t seem to care.
4. Covering topics like rape, sexuality etc. These are Important!
5. Allows you to be educated on suicide. This shows Hannahs emotions throughout.
6. Allows you to relate. Many have been/are like me and had/have suicidal thoughts but there may of/be worse scenarios of this.
7. Allowing people to see how suicide is like, shows have been restricted to not graphically show the suicide but in this show, we saw Hannah bleed to death by cutting herself and that’s needed as this what actually happens and it’s scary, we can’t sugar coat it and sprinkle it with fairy dust. This is a real example.
8.Allowing Parents and Schools to FINALLY have action towards suicide. I have read of students suffering from the loss of students who have committed suicide and are not getting help! It’s not even being mentioned in schools.
9. Inspiring people to help those around them who are self-harming.
10. Allows people to realise their words and make them more cautious
11. Allows people to see how they may be hurting someone else
12.Allows people to speak up and seek help
13. Full Awareness
Notes:
To those parents who don’t like the idea their children watching this, I know I couldn’t imagine my cousins even watching this (nor will they read this blog until they are older) but watch it yourself and allow your child to watch it then talk about but only ask them if they understand this and how it affects them. With honesty, I would cringe and my parents asking this (especially once I upload this Blog) but I will explain that its educational and everything I used to feel I don’t feel no more.
Please if you self-harm or think about suicide please get help and only watch this if you can cope with the graphics of rape, sexual assault and suicide in this show. I’d recommend you do look up this show before watching. I am 19 and I understand the storylines within clearly.

 If you want support I am here, however, please turn to help if you know you need it. I will leave Suicide Hotlines below;
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
  • Samaritans (116 123) operates a 24-hour service available every day of the year. If you prefer to write down how you’re feeling, or if you’re worried about being overheard on the phone, you can email Samaritans at jo@samaritans.org.
  • Childline (0800 1111) runs a helpline for children and young people in the UK. Calls are free and the number won’t show up on your phone bill.
  • PAPYRUS (0800 068 41 41) is a voluntary organisation supporting teenagers and young adults who are feeling suicidal.
  • Depression Alliance is a charity for people with depression. It doesn’t have a helpline but offers a wide range of useful resources and links to other relevant information.
  • Students Against Depression is a website for students who are depressed, have a low mood or are having suicidal thoughts.
  • Bullying UK is a website for both children and adults affected by bullying.
  • A support group called the Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM) is an excellent resource for young men who are feeling unhappy. As well as their website, CALM also has a helpline (0800 58 58 58).

You can also research a number for your area, please get the support needed.


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New YouTube Creator Tag

Here’s a written version for my YouTube Video.

Q1. What is your name?

My name Jessica, You can call me Jess, unless you’re a family member ie. Mum, Dad & Grandparents, It’s Jessica.

Q2. Where are you from?

I am from Lincolnshire in the United Kingdom. Many have said that I have a Lincolnshire Accent, but I just really try my best to sound British as I grew up watching American Disney TV Shows.

Q3. Is this your first channel?

When I was fourteen, I tried to make a channel, with me singing and trying to ‘inspire’, but someone from my school found it and made fun of me. I then I told people that if they wanted to hear me sing to come up to me (they never did) I did take down the video as it knocked my confidence and have been wanting to restart again, but without singing.

Q4. What does your username mean?

My Username Honeymoonbeauty originally was a catchy name for my social media, especially my Instagram.  I have recently seen this quote which mentions about how beauty isn’t all about makeup, fashion etc. and how it’s about inner beauty. This channel will be used to express myself and to show a side of me which I have never shown before.

Q5. What is your channel about?

On my channel you will find, The obvious beauty videos (it’s in my name) however I am not a pro and I’m still learning. You will see the fun side, possible fun and games. My cousins are always asking when we can film the Bean Boozled Challenge and the Chubby Bunny Game. You will also see me doing storytimes and personal talks.  I also hope that my content will grow when people like what they see.  I know I seem to be like every YouTuber out there but I hope you see something in me and want to watch my videos.

Q6. Why should anyone subscribe to your channel?

Don’t feel the need to subscribe and don’t be forced. I hope you find an interest in my videos, and I hope most of you can relate to me as I do with the channels I subscribe to.

Q7. Where do you see yourself and your YouTube channel in 5 years?

Me? I’m not sure, I hope I am doing what I love and no longer procrastinate on things I want to do currently.  As well as having a good income as I’m currently unemployed.

My Channel? If youtube is strong & I have managed to handle my channel, I do hope my channel has given me opportunities. I don’t like looking back or ahead of myself but overall I want to be

I don’t like looking back or ahead of myself but overall I want to be happy and I hope those around me are also happy.

Q8. What inspired you to start making videos?

Before I decided that I want to make videos, many know that I have an account on Instagram which has been around for 2 years now (although recently I haven’t posted) making these videos was down to someone who asked on one of my Instagram posts where I found the ‘Berry Bomb’ Electro Baby Lips in the video. I replied and ‘Stalked’, I saw she was making these videos and I too took an interest as I was studying beauty and I had experience in little editing (My cringey days on twitter as a Kim Kardashian Holywood character account) So I gave it a try. Although I found myself older than most in the ‘Beauty Community’ and viewing arguments. I wanted to move to YouTube however I never felt that push. I felt I was waiting for the day to even make this video.

Q9. Who are some of your favourite YouTubers?

DoddleOddle – I found Dodie myself last year and was able to relate to her songs and content.

QCKND – Although she talks the most about being tattooed and I don’t have tattoos nor see myself getting one. I seem to be attracted to her videos, I feel like we relate in some way.

Jessie Paege – We connect with our social awkwardness and her vibrant joyful videos.

Jessii Vee – another Jessie.. (we gotta stick together) I love her storytimes and feel attracted to her content.

There are much more, and those are who I subscribe to, I think that’s available for you to see.

Q10. The best thing I’ve seen on YouTube?

Youtube has its pros. It’s a way for people to find people who are similar. building relationships, being ourselves and getting possible opportunities.

Q11. The worst thing I’ve seen on YouTube?

YouTubecan also have cons. Everyone knows Trolls and Haters exist and they don’t seem to allow you to be you and post what you love. I do know I’ll be hated ‘on’ one day but possibly for things I already know and have known all my life. Also currently Youtube brands are deciding to pull out which isn’t helping those who currently use this as a job but I don’t see this happen to me currently soon.

Q12. What are your goals when it comes to YouTube?

I’m not going to lie my goals are to gain something from this channel, but I currently just want my channel to be fun for me and for me to be myself and to also possibly to inspire others.

Q13. Any advice for new YouTubers?

Do what you love. If you’re that person who really wants to make videos and you’re 13+ please do and don’t delay. I did because of school but I wish I was doing this sooner.

Post what you love but with positive vibes.

Thank you for reading, See you in the future xo

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